My Dearest Fassia,
Hi Fassia. How are you doing? Seems like it has been a while since I’ve written, or seen a sign from you. I think about you often, talk about you often… but haven’t actually felt you around. That is probably just me being in my own head. Which has been awful lately. I get so set to prove stuff to myself, and to my husband… that I get crazy! I just have to prove that I can do everything and anything and don’t need anybody. Which is crazy because everybody needs somebody and some point or another. That is why we have family and friends and work on networking… because it really is all about who you know. That is why I could never really be president of the Unites States- I don’t know even people in politics- or that have money to support me! hehe… I guess my childhood dream won’t come true… I wanted to be the first woman president. I do think I could still do it- like the job itself. I’ve learned a lot in the past few years about leading. And I think the concepts I’ve learned myself, and from you, and from others, would serve our country well! Wish you were here because I think you’d actually help me try to achieve that… even if it was a big flop- you’d be there supporting.
Part of the reason I haven’t written in a long time is my computer is really dumb. Like super slow and I find it highly irritating that I have to wait so long for a simple webpage to load. I did work on it though so hopefully it gets faster and I can write more. Because I find it therapeutic. Not only talking to you- but typing in general. I find typing soothing. I used to play typing games for fun! Remember the sharks that would eat the diver if you didn’t type the words fast enough? Funny new age thing- I saw they have that idea of a game for texting… these young guns won’t know what typing is soon!
Our world is progressing so fast. Technology is booming and you can easily fall behind if you aren’t in the business or trying to keep up. I find myself behind now… they need classes for older people, monthly, just to keep up on new terms, and saying, and apps, and music! Luckily, my brother and sister still keep me up to date on music occasionally. I like when they send me stuff… makes me feel special. Which is weird and they probably don’t even know what it means to me… like that old, ridiculous, out of touch sister that they still remember!
So much is going on in my life and in the world in general. I always wish you were here to calm this place down. I think you’d be great for the kids, and adults, to bring some peace and tranquility to the atmosphere. I feel like everybody, even myself, is more on edge than they should be. This is no way to live our one life. Or one life that we know of! Heck- maybe you are back somewhere living it up as a golf pro or something!
I have a new position at the hospital- it is a higher leadership position and I am using it to try and advance the power of kindness. I am trying to remember that everybody brings something to the table, and there are two sides to every story, and being mean and harsh and talking behind backs is not going to solve anything. I do have people I vent to- I think that is necessary too- but I do try to be the change I want to see when I am in meetings and talking to random people. I want to be a resource of facts for people… especially since people seem to like to talk to me and seem to like to confide in me. If they have some reason to trust me- then I should respect that and give them honesty and kindness. Not just merely my opinion- by using evidence-based guidance to help them to a decision.
Speaking of kindness… I want nothing more than my daughter to be looked at as kind. So every morning before school I kiss her, hug her, and tell her to be kind and to be brave. She knows I am serious because after I pick her up at school, I ask her one thing she did to be brave or be kind. Yesterday she told me she asked a girl that was sitting by herself to play with her. I LOVED THAT! I think that if Kamala doesn’t do it, and I don’t do it… my daughter could be the first woman president. She is going to make friends of all kinds, be liked by all kids and teachers, and then coworkers. She has a special spirit. Maybe that is YOU coming through? She does have a laugh that reminds me of you- that powerful make everybody look and see what is so funny kind of laugh. Sometimes I tickly her in public just to make her laugh so others around us will smile. I want her to make others happy and make their lives better. I know already she has made me a better person and her daddy. He would do anything for her and I see him striving to be better everyday.
Well this is getting really long. And the fog is rolling in heavy tonight as I sit on the porch and type. And bath time is almost over and after he does bath, I do PJs and hair. I am committing to writing more because it makes me feel better. Thank you for listening. Thank you for the vision you instilled in me. Thank you for my good qualities and for being the person that I never want to let down. I love you.
Until next time.
With All the Love that I Possess,
Your Daughter
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