My Dearest Fassia, I struggled opening my laptop to write this one. I have two things I’d love to be able to talk to you about. Get advice about. One I’m embarrassed about, I think I know what I need to do- I’ve just never been in this situation before and my dark mind makes …
Tag Archives: emotions
9.22.24
My Dearest Fassia, It is currently 1:44AM. I should be sleeping. But I can’t. Story of my life sometimes. So tonight, instead of ordering random “as seen on TV” things- I am writing you. Also, I need you right now. I don’t feel OK inside. I’ve been having some weird experiences and definite insomnia. I …
8.31.24
My Dearest Fassia, I leveled up! Level 38. It was a calm birthday but I definitely felt the love from my friends. My one work friend decorated my office and got me a really nice work bag (I needed a new one). She also got me some flowers and balloons. Then she planned a night …
7.23.24
My Dearest Fassia, Can you believe my brother is going to be 33 tomorrow and my sister will be 35 this weekend? How did we grow up so fast!? Birthdays and other big things are still hard. You shouldn’t be missing them. I’m so proud of who my siblings have become and how they are …
1.31.24
My Dearest Fassia, I sit here tonight reflecting on tomorrow. 14 years since you died. Seems like yesterday in some ways. Seems like 14 years ago in others. I still cry a lot about you and just the situation as a whole. So many silly things that I wish could have been different. Of course, …
1.15.24
My Dearest Fassia, 2024. I am nowhere near where I thought I would be. Most of the time I get down about that. But I am slowly working on that. Working on being proud of who I am and where I am. Proud of the mountains I’ve climbed and the growing I’ve done. Proud of …
7.17.23
My Dearest Fassia, I’m sitting here tonight wondering how I allowed myself to go so long without writing to you. I suppose the shortest answer is- I got lost. I lost myself. Which is weird to me- because it was during a time when I was trying hard to find myself. I was trying to …
11.30.21
My Dearest Fassia, Here is where I am at in my life. 35 years old, but don’t feel like it- still feel like I should be younger! Mentally that is, not physically. My body is definitely showing age. My legs are not as flawless as they used to be. Cannot lose weight as easy. I …
9.11.19
My Dearest Fassia, What an emotional day! September 11- so much heartbreak and love. This is a day I can get wrapped up in- so today I stayed away. Stayed away from pictures and stories and memories. I feel for the families and friends of 9.11 so much. Why? I have no idea. I don’t …
8.20.19
My Dearest Fassia, Let’s talk about emotions. I feel like I can talk on this for forever and be well versed about it- why? Because I have tons of emotions myself! Emotions all the time! Tonight was especially emotional. I think your granddaughter got my emotions- and sometimes my lack of ability to express them! …
Letters to Fassia 